Last week, I’ve been laughing until I cried. The whole week was more on laughter and less of sadness. I didn’t know why. Like I would just be tying my hair and out of no where I would just laugh. I would laugh at the simpliest of things. Then yesterday, me and my boyfriend were hanging out in my house. He did something silly that made my laugh and as usual I cried. Then after a few seconds, my tears of joy became something else. It was like a cry of sadness. My boyfriend didn’t notice because I was covering my face with a pillow. I remembered a quote I read from Facebook, “People who feels lonely usually laughs at the smallest things.” I must admit, I do feel lonely. I feel like I’m a stranger living in a house with a family I don’t know. Maybe I’m just homesick, Maybe I just miss my mom.
Not anymore, my dear. I am dead to you. I must never stop realizing that. I left you there, with the heaviest of hearts, knowing I did the right thing. It never felt more wrong…
Ikaw ba yung uri ng tao na nakikisawsaw sa away ng kaibigan mo? Nagagalit ka ba sa isang taong wala namang ginagawang masama sayo (at maaaring mabuti ang pakisama sayo), dahil lang di sya type ng kaibigan mo? Yun ba ang sukatan ng loyalty, dapat ang away ng isa ay away ng lahat? Ano yan, fraternity? Di mo man lang ba susubukang alamin ang side ng lahat, at tumulong sa paghahanap ng mapayapang solusyon? Kunsabagay, mas exciting pag may gulo. Boring ang buhay mo eh. Kung ikaw kaya ang ismiran o sapakin ng taong wala ka namang atraso, dahil di ka ka-vibes ang friend nya?
